Seras Viktoria from Hellsing was my first love, i literally had no choice in the matter, any boy my age would fall in love with Seras i still would if given chance today. It was some weird story but i remember it second by second.
I was listening to some edgy skrillex songs and found this a hellsing amv of first of the year(could be
this). I fell in love with the visuals, it looked amazing to the 9-10 yr old me. I googled "hellsing" immediately and binged the ultimate ova because i was alone that day soo the family computer was left to me unsupervised, until the flashback of Seras, which literally traumatised me alongside those scenes in first episode. It might sound stupid but know this, there is a line that says "only virgins can be vampires" in the first episode, i had to search what virgin means.
for people that didn't watch hellsing, Seras was harassed in first episode and would became a sex slave if Alucard(mc) didn't come and we see Seras' mother was raped after they kill her in the flashback, both are quite visual I was soo pure for hellsing at that time and i thought about Seras constantly for nearly a month but was too scared to continue watching. This literally caused my parents to think i had ADHD and i was diagnosed with meds. I watched it start to finish after getting ADHD meds, seeing Seras get over her trauma made me stop feeling sad and it turned into love. I was obsessed with anything Seras, i loved her character developement, i loved whenever she was on screen there would be some HIGH caliber guns involved.
Now that i rewatched it as a manchild, i can understand why my jchild self fell in love, Seras is soo perfect that anime's without her doesn't cut it. I started several animes after i rewatched Hellsing and i can't come to finish them because now that i remember how good Seras is and see how any other fmc is just soo annoying or mary sue. I am pretty sure Hellsing will be the first and last anime i finished.