ECHETLAEUS

One of the realest things about humans is their farts behind the scenes.

Celibacy made my life have a meaning, it made me brave enough to confront my shadow self and understand a part of him(i still have enough work to do), celibacy made me feel Gods teachings more, made me thirsty for knowledge, purpose, thirst for life, love for the fellow people, forgive and move, love and stop hate. Celibacy made me having so much energy i couldnt sleep. So much energy to train. When you stop orgasming you rise this energy to the higher energy centers you abstain from orgasm and that hedonic sence after hudreds days of pain and discipline moves to your heart, to the brain you can finally see for some minutes things that can change your life to the good. When you winning every day you dont care to your egoistic losses, the opposite, you can brace it and rise.

The energy today is craaazyyyy

My hearts rate is healthy but it keeps having a flame, being translated as worry, sometimes as joy sometimes as a thirst for escape, for a real companion, a real love, something real but it remains the same, but, am i real? I wonder if i ever find someone, somewhere, a person that the same flame burns within, a flame that it burns hard but you dont want to extiguish it, a flame where you have to light it up, but you burn it, and where you need to burn it, you wipe out. A flame that burns and i wish it keeps burning, i cant sleep, it chokes me, years before i couldnt even explain it, at least the progress moving. I WILL FIND YOU.

Social anxiety completely gone. Finally i can see the light of the end of the tunnel. I understand how it feels to have positive and real motives and acting fake because of this type of anxiety. Sometimes the worst curse can become the best blessing.

Love>hate
Higher self>ego

Dont let this world define you.

The warrior is a man whos spirit is at peace and hes ready for war towards any kind of rivalry

Some people think theyre tough, some others just dont want to ruin their zen.

Some People(majority) get angry when they feel theres something wrong but they cant understand the reason, then because they cant control their anger and ego they get controlled by them as a result trauma appears if it becomes a loop. Then after they heal from the trauma they dont find the reason in the next challenge and they cope by suppressing the "negative" thoughts and feelings which they are the clue of whats wrong if you analyse them, as a result they become neutral and fake in order to protect themselves. Dont ignore negative feelings and thoughts, use them as clues and solve the problem, if you solve whats within you then you will ascent psychologically, spiritually and physically. You love yourself by understanding your dark side, and respect your bright side. Peace and love.

Awesome people realize the awesomeness of other people even if they dont realize themselves.

For the bullied ones, just to know that you are awesome even if i dont know you, fulfill your self with love forgiveness and compassion. One day youll realize what they tried to hide from you, what they feared all these full of fear people. You arent these awful names and things they said about you, those strict beliefs they wanted to force to you, all these cold hearted people hated your flame. Respect has to be earned and you should start from yourself, you owe to you to respect yourself because you already respect enough the others and i know it exactly because manipulative people arent bullied(anymore). Once you awake your voice, your inner flame your value and respect the game changes. Forgive them, but if they return for some of their games, ANNIHILATE them. May the force be with you. The bullying isnt only a term of primary school violence, but a term containing psychological warfare, gaslighting, toxic behaviors provoking guilt and shyness, fear and other lower emotions.

A moment of true peace can heal 1000 days of struggle.

Find someone at your worst and celebrate together.

If you dont give what they want, they call you egoist, if you deny to them to crush your self esteem, ruin your momentum and you keep holding a stronghold of self love(which mirrors to the others also as love) they call you a narcissist. Everyones good at pointing the finger and putting labels. Close minded people theyre afraid of the problem and put labels, open minded people find solutions and try to understand and study the motives of each behavior. The evil wants to control, but its the one root which needs control, the Good is infinite and thats why its most feared and hard to achieve.

Sometimes my lonely path reminds me of women i talked with and felt an attraction, and some of their characteristics make me obsessed until i realized how made their beauty is. I truly believe subconsciously women want to manipulate men for their own sake or their nature does it, or they are manipulated by the make up business. Look how ugly they look without it nowadays, make up destroyed their faces, its a perfect allegory how ego and insecurities can corrupt the spirit of the spiritual great woman nature(women are very healing and spiritual but they corrupted this blessing nowadays).

Back when i was in the military, there was a comrade who he was suffering from mental illness. Nothing ferocious, but deeply emotional. I kinda felt this guy but couldnt help him. He ended up in the hospital and his duty ended.Noones felt him, except some exceptions, the higher ranks laughed or shouted at him but this made it worse. I believe people like him have a huuuge heart but a trambled mind and stomach to brace these hard truths about the life they face and learn. Symptoms like alienation, fear, despair, the feeling about living in an hostile environment because everyones chases their ego path about desires, needs and they try to solve themselves from the infinite problems that created their illogical ego(ego is a survival mechanism, and it gets worse when you have to use it and you dont use it). These people all they want is to have a single happiness and theyll be happy for months.

Pressure is a way of the Lord Jesus Christ to teach you things in order to move a step closer to the next level.

I have a strange idea/feeling that the rainbows default position was in a position where violet and indigo colors where in the highest position and red in the last. Did they reversed the poles?(with all these strange instruments, polarity reversal, weather control, frequency-music warfare, cern). Each color signifies a different chakra. Lgbtq community has its flag a reversed flag of rainbow which the primal chakras(ego=need=a character controlled by needs and repressed feelings) are higher than the higher self chakras(love-peace-joy-enlightenment).

There is a difference between winning and being a winner, wanting to be right and being righteous, telling the truth and being true. There is a difference between desire and reality, many times we impose ourselves externally on others with the belief that our situation will change, while the change comes from internal work. Ego(survival mechanism of the material world) is about neediness and opposission, the spirit is about understanding the need and the percentage of the importance of the need.