HELP! MY INNER VOICE IS UNCLE RUCKUS FROM THE BOONDOCKS!

[lingo]

I'd like to preface this by saying that I am a white man and have never watched a full episode of The Boondocks which makes this experience even more bizarre than it already is, but for the last 2 months or so my internal monologue has been exclusively in the voice of the character Uncle Ruckus from the show The Boondocks. I believe it started when a friend showed me a clip of the show where Uncle Ruckus is singing a rather racist song about former US president, Barack Hussein Obama II. Shortly thereafter I began seeking out as many Uncle Ruckus clips as I could on YouTube, watching clip after clip of the racially confused old man.

The morning after, upon seeing that I had run out of breakfast, my inner voice, in the voice of Uncle Ruckus, immediately blamed it on black people, which was completely untrue as I had finished it the morning before I thought that this was just because of all the Uncle Ruckus clips I had watched and it would just go away on its own, but I was so so wrong, two months on he's still here and only gaining power.
I have tried my best to not let it influence my behavior, and I have been largely successful, but there have been moments where Ruckus has won, for example:

-The other day I saw two black men across the street: I did a gesture against my ear, imitated radio static with my mouth and said "Code Black" several times, luckily I don't think they heard me.

-When saying expressions like "Thank God" and "Oh My God" I have repeatedly put "White" before God, as in "Thank White God" like he does in the show. My friends think its pretty funny, however I am losing control over it and I fear that they may begin to think I am serious, especially as I have said it in front of several strangers at this point, who give me funny look whenever I say it.

-I have repeatedly stated that I am not black at random moments.


-Whenever I introduce myself, I say "no relation" after my name.

-I asked my (asian) doctor for "white people medicine", which I managed to get away with by saying that I actually said I wanted Medicine that was in the form of white pills.

-Whenever I enter a room that fucking tuba starts playing in my head.

I need to deal with this ASAP, as while the things I've mentioned are mostly benign, I fear its going to culminate into me eventually dropping the N-Bomb in real life, which is being dropped in my brain constantly (it's more like carpet N-Bombing at this point), I've even had to draft this several times as I keep on accidentally typing various derogatory remarks randomly while making this.
Has anyone had this issue before? If you have any spiritual guidance PLEASE help me in the replies.

(Also, this doesn't make me racist because its Uncle Ruckus saying this, who is a black man. I will not tolerate comments calling me racist. I'm not racist.)

 

[RisingThumb]

I'd like to preface this by saying that I am a white man and have never watched a full episode of The Boondocks which makes this experience even more bizarre than it already is, but for the last 2 months or so my internal monologue has been exclusively in the voice of the character Uncle Ruckus from the show The Boondocks. I believe it started when a friend showed me a clip of the show where Uncle Ruckus is singing a rather racist song about former US president, Barack Hussein Obama II. Shortly thereafter I began seeking out as many Uncle Ruckus clips as I could on YouTube, watching clip after clip of the racially confused old man.

The morning after, upon seeing that I had run out of breakfast, my inner voice, in the voice of Uncle Ruckus, immediately blamed it on black people, which was completely untrue as I had finished it the morning before I thought that this was just because of all the Uncle Ruckus clips I had watched and it would just go away on its own, but I was so so wrong, two months on he's still here and only gaining power.
I have tried my best to not let it influence my behavior, and I have been largely successful, but there have been moments where Ruckus has won, for example:

-The other day I saw two black men across the street: I did a gesture against my ear, imitated radio static with my mouth and said "Code Black" several times, luckily I don't think they heard me.

-When saying expressions like "Thank God" and "Oh My God" I have repeatedly put "White" before God, as in "Thank White God" like he does in the show. My friends think its pretty funny, however I am losing control over it and I fear that they may begin to think I am serious, especially as I have said it in front of several strangers at this point, who give me funny look whenever I say it.

-I have repeatedly stated that I am not black at random moments.


-Whenever I introduce myself, I say "no relation" after my name.

-I asked my (asian) doctor for "white people medicine", which I managed to get away with by saying that I actually said I wanted Medicine that was in the form of white pills.

-Whenever I enter a room that fucking tuba starts playing in my head.

I need to deal with this ASAP, as while the thing I've mentioned are mostly benign, I fear its going to culminate into me eventually dropping the N-Bomb in real life, which is being dropped in my brain constantly (it's more like carpet N-Bombing at this point), I've even had to draft this several times as I keep on accidentally typing various derogatory remarks randomly while making this.
Has anyone had this issue before? If you have any spiritual guidance PLEASE help me in the replies.

(Also, this doesn't make me racist because its Uncle Ruckus saying this, who is a black man. I will not tolerate comments calling me racist. I'm not racist.)

I've not had this issue before, but as a white person, I hope you get the help you need

 

[Yabba]

I'm not racist.)

 

[Pink Fluffy Cat]

Congratulations! You are an otherkin! Time to embrace your inner true self OwO

 

[RIG]

my inner voice is an anime girl. when i get really focused on work though it turns into peter griffin.

i wish i was kidding but i'm not

 

[lingo]

Congratulations! You are an otherkin! Time to embrace your inner true self OwO

i like that this implies that uncle ruckus is not human

 

[Little River Aral]

BHAHAHAHA WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST READ

 

[Yabba]

my inner voice is an anime girl. when i get really focused on work though it turns into peter griffin.

i wish i was kidding but i'm not

My inner voice is just my voice

I wish I was kidding but I'm not

 

[lingo]

my inner voice is an anime girl. when i get really focused on work though it turns into peter griffin.

 

[h00]

 

[plecomode]

You should get checked for re-vitiligo.

 

[ETierhuman]

My inner voice is a dog barking (I GOT THAT DAWG IN ME)

 

[Radical]

My inner voice is Carl from Aqua Teen. Because this don't matter. None of this matters.

 

[calico_jack]

LISTEN HERE NHIGGA! YO CHUNKY MONKEY ASS ES WUT THE WHITE MAN CALLS "CLINICALLY INSANE"

-SIGNED
UNCLE RUCKUS (no relation)

 

[EzzyCrafts]

have you tried listening to clips that aren't ruckus

 

[Ticbow2003]

My inner voice is just Cosmo Kramer.

 

[lingo]

My inner voice is just Cosmo Kramer.

stay AWAY from the laugh factory

 

[Jessica3cho雪血⊜青意]

My inner voice

 

[Deleted member 4436]

I don't want to take too much of the spotlight off of you for this tragedy of a post you've written, but unironically I went through a phase like this once with HP Lovecraft (at least, what I imagine his voice would sound like)

 

[hyprstorm]

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