FalseReality
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I live alone, was on a teaching course but dropped out due to high pressure and realising I have to act like a robot whilst encouraging students to behave like one too.
Been working warehouse job for a month now, only motivation is that it's good exercise but really it sucks. Losing track of the days, trying to get reading in and being awkwardly quiet because I haven't learnt to take enough conversational risks (and most people there are silent too).
I'm thinking in a couple weeks I just quit and go walking. Bring a bag with some clothes, toothbrush, maybe spare shoes and a sleeping bag strapped to the bag. Try to actually see fun stuff, take risks, get traumatised, learn to deal with life. I'm tired of living a meaningless life working to afford a flat I don't really care to work for. I want to find places to sleep and lower my standards of what is required to be comfortable.
I want life experience. I'm so tired of living a life I don't want.
Writing this is a way of confirming to myself and I wanted to know if anyone has anything they think I should know.
Been working warehouse job for a month now, only motivation is that it's good exercise but really it sucks. Losing track of the days, trying to get reading in and being awkwardly quiet because I haven't learnt to take enough conversational risks (and most people there are silent too).
I'm thinking in a couple weeks I just quit and go walking. Bring a bag with some clothes, toothbrush, maybe spare shoes and a sleeping bag strapped to the bag. Try to actually see fun stuff, take risks, get traumatised, learn to deal with life. I'm tired of living a meaningless life working to afford a flat I don't really care to work for. I want to find places to sleep and lower my standards of what is required to be comfortable.
I want life experience. I'm so tired of living a life I don't want.
Writing this is a way of confirming to myself and I wanted to know if anyone has anything they think I should know.