saigo z
Internet Refugee
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- Jan 27, 2023
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Ever since I can remember, I never had a close friendship with girls the same age as me, and almost no girl would ever talk to me, it has been like this since kindergarten. Maybe it's because of my appearance features (light brown skinned, weak jawline, round face, potato nose, use eyeglasses, nerdy looks, skinny as hell, almost anorexic, shy, introvert, etc. Basically I'm a ugly black nerd)
I only remember one girl that I felt that were genuinely nice and friendly to me (with exception of female parents and relatives). But the majority of them would just ignore me or look me with a look of disgust.
And I feel that (if I'm not wrong, there are studies that kinda support my point) when boys are friends with girls at a scholar age, they become more confident, and I can tell by my life experience that this is true.
It's been like one year that I'm watching pill channels and a lot of what they say makes sense and explain a lot my childhood/teenagehood experience towards the opposite sex. They preach that your looks determine your life, which means people (specially women) will treat you better if you are a Chad.
I feel like if I were more validated by girl my self esteem would be way higher than it is.
In order to fell better about that myself and sorta scape from that stuff, I created a waifu, a imaginary wife. Her name is Aeryyn, every night, I fantasize with her for about 45 min to 1 hour, and that really helps me to cope with my lack of success with the opposite sex.
My therapist said that if I had a girlfriend that would really help me to feel better about myself, but my parents think I'm too young and immature, I don't know what to do so I keep coping with waifus and internet until my enlightenment comes.
Ps: Please, don't call me an incel, my speech may be incellike, but I am really not one an incel, I respect women a lot, thanks
I only remember one girl that I felt that were genuinely nice and friendly to me (with exception of female parents and relatives). But the majority of them would just ignore me or look me with a look of disgust.
And I feel that (if I'm not wrong, there are studies that kinda support my point) when boys are friends with girls at a scholar age, they become more confident, and I can tell by my life experience that this is true.
It's been like one year that I'm watching pill channels and a lot of what they say makes sense and explain a lot my childhood/teenagehood experience towards the opposite sex. They preach that your looks determine your life, which means people (specially women) will treat you better if you are a Chad.
I feel like if I were more validated by girl my self esteem would be way higher than it is.
In order to fell better about that myself and sorta scape from that stuff, I created a waifu, a imaginary wife. Her name is Aeryyn, every night, I fantasize with her for about 45 min to 1 hour, and that really helps me to cope with my lack of success with the opposite sex.
My therapist said that if I had a girlfriend that would really help me to feel better about myself, but my parents think I'm too young and immature, I don't know what to do so I keep coping with waifus and internet until my enlightenment comes.
Ps: Please, don't call me an incel, my speech may be incellike, but I am really not one an incel, I respect women a lot, thanks
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