Le C0C0 is 0ld news. But not to my Parents. Can You Help?

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(((COMING OF AGE MOMENT, WON'T YOU BE A PART OF MINE?)))
If you have any official papers, or heck, medical professional proclaiming the LATEST: suggestions, advice, research, findings, conclusions on..
- masks
- vaccines
- covid being present on food and surfaces and shit
Shattered! Lenses of Your Current Reality: AND HOW THEY WERE BUNK.
I may be the delusional one, or them the delusional two.

The more bureaucratic looking, da batter!

Background: I am Christian. Haha it's personally amusing that I'm admitting this on the 'net. Regarding my parents: On Easter I plan on like confessing, or expressing, shit I've done shit I've been through, and sort of revealing my unorthodox plans for the future much to their potential chagrin. And this week's clashes will surely come up again in discussion on Sunday. Mind you, we're a family that hasn't eaten together in years, + outsiders we seem somewhat.."normal." My siblings dread eating with my parents. Contrarily, I've had a change of heart and desire to do so. I got thrown that lame-ass word antivax an hour ago during one of said clashes. Ah, today, with whatever courage they could muster up (as C0c0 the Idea, is atm zapping fear into all the little crevices of their brain) He basically cursed me with that name, no? Father has been dancing around the usage of that label all week long. The [Bitter]Bitte!sweetness of reality presents the facts. I'm the only one not pricked in the household. Oh? I stayed quiet about my beliefs halfway through this thing. After digging for other information, turning off the news, and keeping up with the latest till Jan-Feb. I can say I am not scared of it. After 11 months of actively changing my perception. In fact, a year ago I turned off CNN.(SHITMYDADJUSTCAMEBAKC)
I can't blame my narc-esque parents. They grew up with absent immigrant parents, and dare I say, have almost non-existent honest relationships with them. So for me today to say to them and I paraphrase "You're right, I don't follow/trust the government" After being accused of following expert's advice (partly true) rather than the abusive Gubba-sama. I WANT TO BE A LOVING PARENT SCREW ANY KIND OF ABUSIVE BEHAVIOR FROM PARENTAL FIGURES. God, I'm in the virtual realm but you can hear me, please wash away the muck and make me the strongest oak tree in my familial generations. Amen.

 

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I can do the work myself and search for these documents. Honestly, I think I might of acciddently created a vent thread. Sorry I've been in good spirits ever since Spring has arrived. I don't want to lose momentum for Sunday. I won't let fear win. In fact, what caused the outburst.. was me feeling motivated and displaying effort IN YEARS. And so I decided to deep clean this old neglected house that I am leaving. His reason for getting upset is, how I miscommunicated and idk the english word but I'm putting the house into chaos. Fair, it's not its old order. But I'm containing the change in smallish sections.
In the outburtst he says I don't understand how someone so intelligent (he's fickle with his compliments as with other things, i inherited that) could be soo *inaudble* and how I'll never move forward. OHOHOHOOOOO bUT I am sir. I am finally taking action. You seem to find the past (i didn't reply only chuckled, so now's my opportunity) quiet convenient. a little tooo convenient.
They are deeeeeply insecure people. I love them, they raised me well. But N00NE is perfect.

I might compromise and just "take a bike ride" to leave this air of toxicity. I sprayed and employed the use of too many dis-infencting wipes. Go figure. I need honey for sunday. let's go check out that bee guy in my neighborhood. hopefully i have the cajones to ring that bell again.

Oh my god, I just received a realization. My dad is hurt? scared? that I'm moving out next month. I'm getting rid of old stuff and displacing objects his hoarder ass just wants stability just like me. So the visuals of that and me unwaveringly standing my ground. Shit bad timing LOL. Or good timing? I want my grandmamama right nyeeooowww

I'm 21 and the spiritual is a helluvadwuhg. Thanks God, Amen.

 

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Father is a medically trained "boomer" His job is his life. His TV is his wife.the car is his side-chick. Agnostic but leans christian.
Mother is teacher trained, who is your typical "Gen Xer" essential oil mom who was wronged and fucked by the medical industry. Protestant Christian, has never found a stable "church base." Something is wavering in her heart rn methinx.
Me an ex-perfectionist, ex-goody2shoesfollowdarules4ever, type. The only thing that stunk slightly of rebellion was me shaving my hair off at 18 with money I saved up. Saying no, and finding alternate ways of completing a task is "rebellion."

They (ex-we) believe watching 5 dfiferent mainstream sources of news and flipping through news articles morning - night is getting informed and cultured. Gotta say some of the channels here have mini documentaries that they produce, and are very informational though. I'll give them that.

Rationally insecure people who flipped a switch this week. What happened? Fears death(my dad freaked for a second bc i told him i stopped by a cemetery earlier this month), {Get healthfull, you're dying right now} Forgot God {Cm'on have a lil faith..jussa lil}, and dismiss my disagreements as me not kissing ass anymore and selfishly rebelling {¯\_ (ツ)_/¯}. I admit, starting around last year, I received delight from saying no or disagreeing. However, now I think it's not out of childish desire. Y'all are not taking this nest-leaving lightly at all? Like, I'm really truly considering what I'm actually feeling or thinking and just blurting it out. Their assumptions about me and the world RULED my world. Instead of feeding the conclusions they so eagerly bounce on, because they want easy mode 24/7. NOW I AM BEECOMING HONEST with Him, with me, with them, with you.