Deepwaterjew
Young prophet
- Joined
- May 19, 2021
- Messages
- 118
- Reaction score
- 262
- Awards
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Man I hate the shtick I need to hold up so my reality doesn't collapse into the shitty timeline I need to have this wholesome showman whimsically joyful mentality or else shit falls down and guess what? It falls down any way.
I talk to girls, I really do, I treat them as you would treat people (the average way) and I even get along well with them. The problem is that they never take initiative. Okay I'm generalizing, being quarantined right now may make me think too much.
What's the actual thing is that it's not only my friends who are girls who don't just talk first, it's that none of my friends do. Should I get better friends? It would be hard, these are the presently best friends I've had, but they just don't plan for shit. Nobody plans for shit, what's the deal with that?
You know who texted first, who also texted back and who texted fast? Her, Her of all people of course, and I fucked it up. A not emotionallu mature enough mentality fucked it up, mostly being egged on by external factors. Fucking external factors, I wish stoicism worked. But guess what? Now she's either dead or unreachable, >and that's a good thing.
God, imagine If I actually saw her currently, I bet one of us would have a heart attack while the other runs away.
Fucking hell shit fuck fuck shit and all the other bad words, working out my physique and my speaking skills so I get the rona and girls don't take the initiative.
I do wish I regret writing this when I wake up
I talk to girls, I really do, I treat them as you would treat people (the average way) and I even get along well with them. The problem is that they never take initiative. Okay I'm generalizing, being quarantined right now may make me think too much.
What's the actual thing is that it's not only my friends who are girls who don't just talk first, it's that none of my friends do. Should I get better friends? It would be hard, these are the presently best friends I've had, but they just don't plan for shit. Nobody plans for shit, what's the deal with that?
You know who texted first, who also texted back and who texted fast? Her, Her of all people of course, and I fucked it up. A not emotionallu mature enough mentality fucked it up, mostly being egged on by external factors. Fucking external factors, I wish stoicism worked. But guess what? Now she's either dead or unreachable, >and that's a good thing.
God, imagine If I actually saw her currently, I bet one of us would have a heart attack while the other runs away.
Fucking hell shit fuck fuck shit and all the other bad words, working out my physique and my speaking skills so I get the rona and girls don't take the initiative.
I do wish I regret writing this when I wake up