I've always lived with a co-worker mentality when it comes to interacting with people, both offline as well as online. There's a stereotype I've seen people been placed into of introverted people who never speak in real life, yet are total goofs online; from my experience at least, I can't say that this is true.
I can talk with people more or less adequately, and I can even be funny sometimes. I have noticed however, that the tone with which people interact with me is different from how they treat others whom I would consider them to be "friends" with.
In all honesty, this is probably my fault, or maybe not. It may not even be a problem, as I might prefer it this way. I try to break out of this mentality on occasion, yet I never really succeed.
As I said, the same is true online.
I would consider this to summarize my attitude well enough:
Although I have only been here for a week, I doubt this site will be any different.
There's lots which I am leaving out, of course, but I'd like to get to the real reason behind this post:
So basically, and not to sound like a total 4Kids villain here, but what is "friendship"?
In my case, it usually amounts to not being uncomfortable around people, but I believe that there is more to it than that.
I have a suspicion that my relationships with people are not as deep as they should be, or maybe they are. Maybe I'm doing everything right, as right as any sociable person should be, yet, still, everything feels so wrong.
I've not written even half my thoughts on the subject, and I see now that this post is all over the place due to that fact, but basically,
Tldr:
Idk lol I might not have any friends online or offline and I've already written like 6 paragraphs of text, and I don't want to just delete all that effort