endless_self

once im done with my studying i will switch to linux mint cause windows 11 smells
how can any sane person PAY for an OS and accept receiving ads? not even talking about all privacy issues ugh...

I will repost my message from chat. This is EXTREMELY important:
does anyone know why @dargon left agora/net? i read his last posts both here and on his website and im incredibly concerned for his well being. i don't know him personally, but the tone of his latest posts seems unusual.

i seriously do not understand people who praise the war as if it is something good and/or cool. war is ANYTHING but good.
the war ALWAYS brought grief and NOTHING but grief: fathers have to bury their sons, mothers are left as widows, children will be raised without their parents.

and the worst part, media usually portrays any war as sort of "fun" or "heroic" event in human history, completely undermining the HORRORS associated with it. sure, its fun and games to peek into "romanticized war" from a comfortable chair, looking through the monitor - poisoning minds of average people with the twisted perspective on it.
like, i don't even see the reason of why someone would like the war in the first place? no propaganda is able to turn normal people into cruel animals like that, unless the person was twisted to begin with.

so here's my question of the day to you agorians: how braindead or bloodthirsty one has to be to root for war?

today was a goddamn emotional roller coaster.
i went from "typical thursday" to "boooring", then to "oh damn this day might not be so bad", then to "holy crap i literally cant take it anymore", then to "life is a bliss and i want to appreciate it while i can" after a small walk outside, and then after one conversation im back to "omg i can't take it anymore".
i want to finish my goddamn education and not solve your stupid problems (that you've completely could've avoided if you weren't such a dummass!)
not allowed to be happy ffs

You can say that I'm cooking some real stuff. Some devious shit even.
My baby has customizable GUI, low-level custom networking handling, complex client-server model.
I've even created all of my diagrams inside of the MS paint to show how my program works!
And best thing? The launcher was made in the .bat file with an ability to install python libraries directly without leaving the command prompt.
If this won't get at least an A, I will be incredibly disappointed.
But, honestly, I had mad fun while making this project and hopefully it will be enough to go to Uni.

1 day left until the deadline for my courseworks.
Currently listening to Carpenter Brut and writing documentation for my program.
Feeling like a badass, despite being an an absolute failure in reality!

AMD screwed up Fallout 3/NV engine support with new drivers. literally not allowed to gamble fml

found a very funky website that allows you to create funny gifs, like this one!

just entered agora and i have +22 notifs... wat did i do?

Actively resisting the urge to buy myself used Thinkpad P52 with Xeon, Quadro P2000 and 64 gigs of ram.
Problem with it is not that I can't afford it, it's the fact that now is not the best time for a laptop ubgrade for me...

I feel extremely overstimulated by new internet and the ease of access to the information provided by it.
I wish I could just stop using every social media at once, but at the same time I am required to keep contact with IRL people in there.
This feeling of burnout, laziness and constant state of sadness that it provokes is just unbearable.
Can any of you anons recommend a good ways to ease a mind without using the net?
thanks in advance.

including this thing i made in 5 minutes to put a bit more effort in this effortless advice post. =P

Whoever reads this, remember that no matter how deep in the net you are - there is always someone waiting for you IRL.
Don't lose yourselves, anons.

so tired from everything
destined to move from one concrete box to another.
tired, annoyed.
everyone tells me that i have to do something, but i have no idea what i want to do myself.
feels as if no matter what i do, it won't be enough to get back on track.
lost, meaningless.
and yet circumstances constantly push for decisions. do this, do that. do everything at once!
not enough time, and if there is enough time i simply cannot create anything.
rushed, burnt out.

it's just how life is for me i guess. could've been much worse, and i've lived through this worse.
yet it feels that something dies inside of me every day i have to wake up.

mydadiscar created a new whiteboard (press me)!
there is nothing on it, and i need YOU to contribute!

gimme an idea what to draw and i will doodle it here!
(pls be reasonable lol)

holy crap they made exams 1 month early and now
we only have a month left to prepare ecsdee!!!1!

bye-bye to all of my passion projects, its time to grind le fookin' M A T H E M A T I C S

I want to add an interactive element to my website that will include couple sprites with dialogue options like in visual novels.
In simple words, I want an ANIME GIRL to greet people on my website, okay?!
So, I need advice from professional web mages of Agora on how to make this happen.
That's her btw:hello
(thanks in advance =D)

The whiteboard will close on 1/2/24 and i will literally become homeless once again...

make sure to have a quick looksie before it will turn to dust!

Look who it is! It is Lea from CrossCode!!!
Drawn by muh friend)