this insanity of being alive and just knowing that even if i get everything i want i am going to be miserable I cant stand this hell i am losing my fucking mind i am going to fucking kill myself i truly wish i could describe the frustation and anger but its like impossible to put into words like ik everyone is gonna be like "oh dont kys cause you have things to live for and blah blah blah" but like watching humanity eat and destroy itself and just the monotny of being alive i truly cant stand i wanna try and be clear i dont wanna kms cause im depressed or sad i wanna kms cause i simply not only cant stand to be around even my species but the hatred i feel deep down from just the thought of living day to day is immense and indescribable