I'm sure you guys and gals will relate to what my covid+exam-
exhausted brain has made me want to write here. I'm absolutely positive the internet
killed my mind, my creativity, my desire to learn and my will to gain bright, exciting knowledge.
I grew up in a digitilizing Western Europe in the turn of the century. The internet was definetely part of our lives, but
it wasn't our lives. I remember almost everytime my dad gave me access to the computer. I used to play flash games with him along with Lego CD-ROMS. I was 13 when I registered on Facebook, only after lurking some forums and goofing around for what was most likely
an hour a week. At first, Facebook wasn't a big deal. I got told off by my parents when they found out I was using it, but it didn't quite interest me at the time.
Everything changed when I turned 16. I got caught in the dopamine loop because all my friends organized stuff via messenger and Facebook groups. It wasn't that I wanted to be there, but
I had to. Literally every social hobby I've developped since then was started or accelerated by the extensive use of Facebook. When I got a girlfriend, it got even worse. I can't count
the fucking hours I've lost texting her from early 17 to late 18 years old. Facebook isn't enough. I now need my daily dose of >reddit
, Instagram, Twitter and Youtube. I've chosen every word carefully.
I fucking need my dose. Just like a drug. The few first sips of Internet, and especially 2.0 Internet, make you feel like you're this rainbow dancing frog gif, but after a while you're just a doomer zombie like everyone else in this society.
Apart from taking my time, a definite large chunk of my youth, it also
took its toll on my actual brain. I feel so sluggish, so terribly lame and uninterested at everything. My current girlfriend has ADHD and it's even worse for her. Everything is designed to kill our spark and destroy our willpower. I have to actively think of not using social media to stop using them for a few hours. I am absolutely positive that
I have been thoroughly corrupted by the internet, from my optimistic and brilliant youth to this mess of an adulthood.
The only thing that makes me sigh of relief is that I never got hooked on my phone. Whenever I'm outside of my home,
I'm a human again. Fortunately, I'm not yet like all those people who can't stand waiting 10 minutes for a train without plugging their brain to the ever-scrolling ever-pathetic nonsensical feed of fake happiness created by social media.
PS: Another feeling is growing strong inside me and makes me want to put an end to all this bullshit. The next class divide will not only be artificial barriers such as cultural capital and the way school is engineered, it will be a cognitive one. See how rich scumbags prevent their children from using tech devices? See how poorer people buy an iPhone first, books second (if ever)? It is happening. The elites are making people's children dumber on purpose. Soon it'll be impossible to defend equality since humans will not be potentially equal anymore. We will have to deal with a mentally-impaired working class and a comparatively superior ruling class.